contrite

|kənˈtrīt|
adjective

"feeling or expressing remorse or penitence; affected by guilt"


[17] The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.
(Psalm 51:17 ESV)

What is it to truly have "a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart"? How can I, that in all that I do, not rely on my own strength, so that I know it is the Lord who works through me...

Yet I still see so much glimpses of pride simmering within me, and I hate to even hear the words I speak. How can I truly die to my self? To stop seeking for approval in the eyes of man, but God's? That the one thing that I desire and seek is to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to dwell in the shelter of the Lord God Almighty... Woe am I.

Lord have mercy.