camp #12 & a passing by
What a strange feeling this is — to intensely mourn and rejoice — all at the same time. Both for the living and the dead.
Awestruck: A camp that challenged and shifted paradigms on worship. To be a true worshipper of God living in unbridled response to His revelation. To worship in spirit and truth (John 4:23-24). And all that happened in that short span of 4 days were surely flames testing my conscious theologies, and bringing to light the dark, subconscious ones.
Every time I am reminded of why I am in this, I see the other side of it which I don't want to face. It is a scientific fact that it requires less muscles to smile than to frown: It is always more enjoyable to be in the company of those who are spiritually hungry. It is easier to rejoice and labour on in the euphoria of seeing lives change. It is much, much harder to bear with the unlovable and to hoist up the ones who put their body weight on sin. The hidden frowns of disapproval that crease my heart drains me, and my legs want to walk the other way before my tongue unleashes itself.
But I am reminded of why I am in this, and I see the side of it that I am called to face: This is the side that needs mourning. Mourning for the sins of man and against whom they inflict. It is the sick that need healing, not the well, and this is the reason Christ came. This is the Gospel — that we may have life. Life in sweet communion with God, as God intended it to be.
LJJ: A young brother who died too tragically, too soon. No one was ready for this — but the Lord knew. Only that He doesn't wish for tragic incidents to happen... But these things will have to continue happening for now. Till He returns and renews this land. What a hope that can't be found elsewhere.
Awestruck: A camp that challenged and shifted paradigms on worship. To be a true worshipper of God living in unbridled response to His revelation. To worship in spirit and truth (John 4:23-24). And all that happened in that short span of 4 days were surely flames testing my conscious theologies, and bringing to light the dark, subconscious ones.
Every time I am reminded of why I am in this, I see the other side of it which I don't want to face. It is a scientific fact that it requires less muscles to smile than to frown: It is always more enjoyable to be in the company of those who are spiritually hungry. It is easier to rejoice and labour on in the euphoria of seeing lives change. It is much, much harder to bear with the unlovable and to hoist up the ones who put their body weight on sin. The hidden frowns of disapproval that crease my heart drains me, and my legs want to walk the other way before my tongue unleashes itself.
But I am reminded of why I am in this, and I see the side of it that I am called to face: This is the side that needs mourning. Mourning for the sins of man and against whom they inflict. It is the sick that need healing, not the well, and this is the reason Christ came. This is the Gospel — that we may have life. Life in sweet communion with God, as God intended it to be.
LJJ: A young brother who died too tragically, too soon. No one was ready for this — but the Lord knew. Only that He doesn't wish for tragic incidents to happen... But these things will have to continue happening for now. Till He returns and renews this land. What a hope that can't be found elsewhere.
13 Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— 14 yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. 15 Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” 16 As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. 17 So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. (James 4:13-17 ESV)
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